Tuesday, May 17, 2011

when people are jerks

when people are jerks i'd like to tell them to take a flying leap.
off the nearest bridge.
into deep water.
that's freezing cold.
and filled with sharks.

when people are jerks i'd like to make them peel a hundred onions.
without taking a break.
or stopping to wipe their nose.
and then push them into a vat of tunafish.
that smells like it rotted last year.

when people are jerks i'd like to tell them to hold their breath.
until they're blue in the face.
and their neck muscles bulge out.
so they look uglier than they're already acting.

when people are jerks i'd like to kick them in the butt.
hard enough for them to fly across the room.
and crash into the wall.
and spill their large and sticky drink down the front of their shirts.

when people are jerks i'd like the world to stop.
and a hall monitor to whistle.
and write them a detention slip.
that puts them in time out.
for like a million years.

when people are jerks i wish the boogie man.
and bed bugs.
and Batman.
would keep them up at night.
boogie-ing them.
and making them itch.
and showing them who's boss.

when people are jerks i wish they'd trip over their feet.
and fall on their face.
and then try to get up.
only to have it happen over and over and over again.
for the entire rest of the month.

when people are jerks i wish they'd have someone treat them
exactly like they treat other people.
only a hundred times worse.
so they see how totally mean.
and nasty.
and terribly rude they really are.

but most of all.
when people are jerks.
i wish.
(i just really wish).
that they would just be nice.


i just wrote this out of the blue when someone was rude to me today. it made me laugh and it made me feel better. my seven year old loves it. and loves me. and my thirteen year old just read it and told me he loves me too. and at the end of the day, that's all that matters. because love and laughter and family overcomes everything in life. even jerks.
happy tuesday!!!

colleen :)

p.s. i don't really wish these things on anyone. except the timeout one. for like a million years of course...

Sunday, May 15, 2011

i think my son hates me

i saw your face when you walked away and it broke my heart.

i know you're disappointed. i know you're upset. i know you think it's not right. but it has to be this way.

in your mind, we're overreacting. you probably think we've forgotten what it's like to be your age. that we don't trust you. that nothing could go wrong. 

but this is a crazy world. one in which unimaginable things happen. one in which "it could never happen to me" just happened in our own family.

and so we overprotect. we keep you close. we put limits on your freedom. and now that you're thirteen you hate that.

because you think your friends can do what they want. and you think that everyone else is doing it. and you think that our rules are stupid, and crazy and not fair. 

i remember being like you when i was growing up. thinking there were too many restrictions. wondering why i had a father so unlike all the others. wondering why these parenting rules applied only in our house and rarely in the lives of anyone else i knew.

my dad would answer the phone when our friends would call us after 9pm (yes, really...9pm) and ask if they knew what time it was. when they answered yes, he would tell them, "good, then you know it's too late to be calling our house!" and he would hang up on my them. and i didn't get to call them back. until the next day. and it embarrassed me.

and when i would have someone come over for a sleepover my dad insisted on meeting the parents. he would rush out to the cars before they drove away and introduce himself. he didn't care that the other parent was fine without knowing who he was but he wasn't fine with it. and so out he would go. and embarrass me. again.

when he dropped me off for school each morning he would give me a kiss. just like when i was five and in kindergarten. it didn't phase him that now i was a teenager and too old for that. it didn't phase him that people might see me kissing my dad and make fun of me. it didn't even phase him that he would say "i love you" and expect me to say it back. nothing phased him. but it phased me. and more importantly, it embarrassed me.

on my first date  i had to provide make, color, and LICENSE PLATE NUMBER of the vehicle i was going in. "are you kidding," i asked my dad, "who does that?"  my dad did that. and so off i went. outside. before my date. to write down the information. i was sure he'd never ask me on a second date and my life would be over. and i thought i would die. because of everything he did, i think that embarrassed me the most.

growing up i thought my dad was way too strict. that he was way too old-fashioned. that he had no clue. but i was wrong. though i hated it then, i'm glad that my dad was the way he was. 

all those friends he hung up on are still my friends to this day. all those friends who slept over my house, loved my father and loved spending time there. my senior year, a friend who saw my dad drop me off for school everyday, told me she was jealous because she wished she had such a good relationship with her dad. 

and that first date, when i thought i would die of embarrassment? i married him. and he became your father.

i never knew that being a parent would be so hard. that i would have to make choices that you didn't like or agree with because i knew they were the right choices to make. and though you won't know for YEARS that everything i did was because i love you and want the best for your life, i hope for now you won't think i embarrass you too much.

because i'm not doing it on purpose. 

i promise.

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