sometimes life is beyond me. sometimes people and what they do are beyond me. sometimes who i've become in the middle of all the chaos is beyond me.
and i get consumed. and overwhelmed. and alone. really alone.
because the darkness of the world, the darkness of me, is beyond what i can understand. beyond what i can comprehend. beyond what i can handle.
and i find myself wondering why i try. why i bother. why i care.
and i wonder if it's worth it.
i wonder if i'm worth it.
and i get lost in the wondering. i get lost in the questioning. i get lost in the battle.
and right in the middle of my occasional darkness, God finds me. always. He always finds me. He always finds a way of letting me know He sees me. He always finds a way of letting me know He hears me. He always finds a way of wrapping His arms around me in such a way that i know that i am not alone.
i am not alone.
and neither are you.
because even when this world, even when this life, is beyond me...is beyond you...
He never is.