i know you're doubting anything you ever believed about Him.
i hear you telling people He can't be real.
suggesting He's a fairy tale.
spouting your hatred of Him because you're mad at what you think He's done.
you look at this world and you see the pain.
you see the corrupt.
you see the evil.
and you tell yourself a good God wouldn't allow bad things.
a good God wouldn't let people fall.
a good God wouldn't
sit back while His children suffer.
and so you reject anything that remotely suggests that God is on the throne.
because you want nothing to do with serving a God like that.
but you can't base your faith on what others have done.
because you'll see their failures,
you'll see their shortcomings,
you'll see their moments of hypocrisy,
and you'll decide that their flaws are the reason why God can't be real.
not a God you want to believe in anyway.
but just like your body can't survive on what someone else has eaten,
your faith can't survive on how someone else has lived.
you have to have your own conversation with Him.
one in which you ask the hard questions.
and you stop to listen for the answers.
that's the hard part. the stopping long enough in your anger to listen.
the quieting your mind long enough to hear Him speaking to your heart.
but the hard parts in life are often the most necessary.
the hard parts are often the ones that help us the most.
you've turned from God because someone else has sinned.
you've lost your faith because someone else has failed.
but their sins don't prove that God doesn't exist.
and their shortcomings don't prove that God has fallen short.
it just proves we live in a fallen world.
a world that breaks His heart too.
i know you're mad at God. i know you think He's let you down.
you've told the world your pain.
it's time to tell Him.
He knows you've walked away.
and He's waiting for you to come home.